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Birthday fic: Confession, 1/1

Title: Confession
Author: htbthomas
Fandom: Smallville
Pairing: Jimmy Olsen/Chloe Sullivan
Rating: PG
Word Count: 1284 words
Summary: I want my Chimmy! Indulge me a little fixit fic for the last scene of Smallville 704, Cure.
Author's Notes: A birthday ficlet for louisemcgregor. Thanks to sean_montgomery for the last-minute beta.

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“Jimmy, I’m so sorry for the craziness I’ve put you through the last couple of weeks,” Chloe apologized. Jimmy sat beside her, the earnest look on his face making her deeply want things to be right between them.

“Well, let’s just agree that the future will be more normal.”

And with that, something snapped inside. Normal? She would never be normal again. Not now that kryptonite had changed her. And the cure she had desperately sought had been nothing but a sham…

“Deal?”

Her heart sank. “I don’t think I can make you that promise…” As she continued, she wished with everything she had that her next words were untrue, but after the way he had talked of ‘meteor freaks’ with such disgust… “I don’t think things will ever be normal between the two of us.”

After a moment of shock, he suddenly stood, not meeting her eyes. “Okay...” He shook his head a couple of times, clearly trying to get a handle on what she was saying. Then his eyes cleared and he looked at her again. “Wait a minute… is this because of Kara?”

Chloe began to shake her head. Sure, she’d had a small stab of jealousy seeing them together earlier, but—

“Because, after all the times that you left me on hold to go… run off and help Clark, I’d hate to think that… you’re gonna give me a hard time for helping Kara once?” he asked incredulously, his voice starting to break with emotion.

“No, this isn’t about Kara, this is about me, this is entirely me,” she struggled to explain. Oh God, this was so hard!

Jimmy searched her face, trying to understand. “What’s going on, Chloe?” She wanted to tell him what was going on, her mind was practically shouting – Tell him! But the words stuck in her throat, choked back by fear of how he would react.

“You… if you can’t say it…? Try some sign language, or subtitle it…?”

Hot tears came finally to her eyes. “I can’t…” She couldn’t bring herself to finish. She suddenly felt sorry for all the times she lambasted Clark for keeping secrets… Her eyes closed to try to stop the tears from running down her face.

She felt the warm touch of Jimmy’s fingers on her cheek, brushing away a runaway tear. “Come on, Chloe, you can tell me… how bad can it be?”

How b— She crumpled into his arms, fully sobbing now, and hating it. She wanted to tell him – hadn’t she watched Clark go through this with Lana ad nauseam? But how could she tell him? Jimmy wanted someone who was normal

He gently patted her as she rubbed her face into his shoulder. “Whoa, whoa, whoa… it’s okay…” He made soothing noises for several minutes as she let the tears flow freely – he seemed to know that talking was the last thing she needed right now.

Finally, she pulled back, wiping uselessly at her eyes with the back of her hand and sniffling. “I’m so sorry, Jimmy… every time I think I’ve got a handle on this, I find out I really don’t…”

He took one of her hands in his and gave her one of his winning smiles. “No, I’m sorry I pushed you, Chloe. You don’t have to tell me if it upsets you so much.” He looked down at their clasped hands. “You do know that you can tell me, right?” He looked back up into her eyes hopefully. “Whenever you’re ready.”

She nodded slightly, breaking eye contact.

He stood quickly. “Hey, what do you say we get a coffee somewhere? There’s that place around the corner… I don’t know if it compares to the Talon, but it’s gotta be better than this dusty old room…”

How she wanted to do that… to pretend as if they hadn’t just been on the verge of a breakup… No. She refused to make the same mistakes she had watched her best friend make over and over again. She had to tell him, even if it turned out to be the end… for real. If she didn’t, then she’d only be delaying the inevitable. “I’d love that…” She offered a half-smile. “But what I’d love more…” She pulled him down to sit again. “…is for you to know just what’s going on with me.”

Jimmy’s expression of concern flickered for just a moment – Chloe knew he’d been waiting for an explanation for a long time – but he kept silent. He’d been so patient with her, more than patient. “I found out I’m…” Her voice broke. He squeezed her hand, and she found the strength to force more words out. “…that I’m different.” She paused, dreading having to call herself the name she had casually tossed about when editor of the Torch.

“Different? Well, we’re all a little—”

“No.” She stopped him before he could misunderstand. “I really am. I’m a… a meteor freak.”

Jimmy stared at her for a moment, then a gave a little nervous laugh. “Seriously?” She stared back numbly, feeling as if her whole world was crumbling around her. After a pause that seemed to last forever, he said, “You...?” He closed his eyes and gave his head a little shake. “But... how? How is that possible?”

Chloe winced. His words hurt, but at least he hadn't let go of her hands. “Just like anyone else gets infected, Jimmy,” she replied, her voice growing stronger. “I didn't ask for this, you know.”

“Oh, I know that... but you've always been so... you and Clark, you...” He ran a hand through his hair, trying to process this new information. “Wow.”

“I only found out earlier this year, and I didn't even know what I could do until a few weeks ago...” She swallowed. “And it scares me to death.” Literally, she added mentally. Waking up in the morgue was the worst experience of her life, and that was really saying something after everything she'd been through. “That's where I was tonight... trying to get a cure... there isn't one.”

“Oh, Chlo...” He wrapped his arms around her. “Do you think I care about that? All I want is you... whatever that means.” He pulled back and placed his hands on the sides of her face. “I just want to be with you - that's the only reason I... God, I was such an idiot to say those things...”

She managed a small grin through the tears which hadn't yet stopped. “Don't worry, I was exactly the same until I found out.”

He grinned in return, and leaned forward slightly as if he were going to kiss her... but then he stopped. But Chloe had no such hesitation. She leaned into him, lips brushing against his. He opened his mouth to her and returned her kiss enthusiastically. As she kissed him, relief flooded through her and warmth suffused her limbs. What she had feared - Jimmy leaving her in disgust - hadn't happened. He had accepted her, told her he wanted her... Jimmy broke the kiss and ran a hand down her tear-stained cheek. “I love you, Chloe. I always will, okay?”

“I love you, too, Jimmy. I'm sorry I kept this from you.”

He nodded his head toward the doorway, smiling. “You wanna go get that coffee now?”

“God, yes.” She wiped her tears one last time and stood, grabbing her bag.

As they headed down the hallway, Jimmy turned to her. “Hey, you wouldn't be able to, you know, speed us there, or fly, or teleport...?” he joked. “You never did say what it was you can do.”

With a mysterious wink, she replied, “I'll tell you over the first cappuccino.”

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Comments

( 24 comments — Leave a comment )
saavikam77
Oct. 26th, 2007 03:15 am (UTC)
Awww... I love fix-it fic. ^_^ Stupid canon. *kicks it*
louisemcgregor
Oct. 26th, 2007 05:02 am (UTC)
Awwww, so damn cute and sad. Poor Chloe. The last Jimmy's line was funny. Jimmy is a Heroes fan as well. m:P

Thank you for the awesome present. I loved !!!! m:))))
htbthomas
Oct. 26th, 2007 09:45 am (UTC)
I think if the Smallville people had our TV shows, they'd either be big fans of Heroes or write it off as a reality show!

Glad you liked it! Happy Birthday!
htbthomas
Oct. 26th, 2007 09:43 am (UTC)
I think I'm starting to see the catharsis in fixit fic myself! While you're kicking the canon, would you mind kicking TPTB? :D
steefvaniersel
Oct. 26th, 2007 07:37 am (UTC)
JeeJ a chimmy story! *squeel*
they are so hard too find!
I loved it, thnx soooo much!
-x-
htbthomas
Oct. 26th, 2007 09:47 am (UTC)
Oh, thanks for the review! I've never written a Smallville story before, let alone a Chimmy one. (I have read a lot, mostly Clois) So glad you enjoyed it!

BTW, how did you find this?
steefvaniersel
Oct. 26th, 2007 09:51 am (UTC)
your welcome,
there was a link at devoted fans network
(chloe/Jimmy thread), posted by louiselane !!
htbthomas
Oct. 26th, 2007 09:52 am (UTC)
Yay for pimping from the birthday girl! :D Glad you stopped by! :)
awehla
Oct. 26th, 2007 02:31 pm (UTC)
Louise sent all her friends over here for a read, good story and I like the term fix-it fic, but I do actually think Chloe and Jimmy should have broken up. If she could be more like the Chloe in your story then maybe they stand a better chance. She should have learned a lesson from Clark!

Lisa
x
htbthomas
Oct. 26th, 2007 03:26 pm (UTC)
I hope that Chloe does eventually come clean with him. If I have to suffer through Jimmy/Kara for a season, I'm okay as long as my Chimmy comes back. :(

I agree... why doesn't she see that she's doing exactly the same thing Clark always has done?

Thanks for stopping by! :)
awehla
Oct. 27th, 2007 03:28 pm (UTC)
I don't see how Jimmy and Kara would work out because Kara won't be able to tell him her secret without exposing Clark. Plus won't she have the same problems sexually as Clark has?

Lisa
x
htbthomas
Oct. 27th, 2007 03:32 pm (UTC)
I have no idea how it would work either - I think the only reason they are doing it is because Jimmy and Kara had a thing in pre-Crisis Superman comics.

Which, of course, leads me to wonder: if you're going to throw canon out the window most of the time, why pick this character to actually use it? *facepalm*

But that would be awesome if Kara realized she would be exposing Clark if she confided in Jimmy. Then the relationship could go back to Chimmy... I can hope anyway... :D I have long since given up trying to figure out why they do anything on this show. But I still watch it every week. *shrugs*
awehla
Oct. 28th, 2007 03:27 pm (UTC)
I didn't know Jimmy and Kara had a thing in the comics, that's interesting.

I think the Smallville writers like to get ideas from the comics but choose their own path which is OK most of the time but my main bug bear, well I have two, one is Clark should be able to fly by now and two is Clark shouldn't have had such an intense thing with Lana because his first big love was supposed to be Lois. Lana was just supposed to be his childhood sweetheart. I carry on watching because I still enjoy the show and I want to see what happens in the end.

Lisa
x
htbthomas
Oct. 28th, 2007 03:30 pm (UTC)
I love the icon!

And I agree with your two bug bears. :) I probably have more bug bears with the show than a person ought to, but yeah, I'll probably be there until the bitter end myself.
lilyoftheval5
Oct. 26th, 2007 03:58 pm (UTC)
I like this version of the event!
I felt like screaming while I was watching her getting all clammed up...
Much better, plausible too.
htbthomas
Oct. 26th, 2007 04:21 pm (UTC)
Screaming? Sounds familiar, you should see this entry from last week...

I have hope it will work itself out... but if not, that's Crackville for ya.
babettew54
Oct. 26th, 2007 11:49 pm (UTC)
Awww, Barb. That was so nice. I hope they can find their way back to each other, and she can open up to him just like you wrote. There's more drama this way, of course.

Thanks, Barb, for this fantasy. It could happen, though. I hope so.
htbthomas
Oct. 27th, 2007 12:41 am (UTC)
Yes, it is a nice little fantasy, isn't it? Sigh... of course, it's not so good for the drama element.

Thanks for reviewing!
mark_clark
Oct. 30th, 2007 05:01 pm (UTC)
Awwww, this was sweet. That's exactly how it should've happened. Chloe knew how Clark had to deal with him keeping his abilities secret and it was now her turn. I'm happy that Jimmy stood by Chloe because maybe someone might not have. The ending was funny. Leave it to Jimmy to ask Chloe about using her powers to get them to the local coffee shop.
htbthomas
Oct. 30th, 2007 06:33 pm (UTC)
If only this was the way it really happened. *sigh* I can only hope that they come back together by the end of the season. :'(
seacrystal
Jan. 27th, 2008 11:25 am (UTC)
It really did my heart good that they're back together in Gemini, I knew they'd pull through. :D

This is a really lovely fic, Jimmy's reactions are very realistic.

As they headed down the hallway, Jimmy turned to her. “Hey, you wouldn't be able to, you know, speed us there, or fly, or teleport...?” he joked. “You never did say what it was you can do.”

lol, wasn't flying among the things he thought of when he tried to guess what Chloe power is?
htbthomas
Jan. 27th, 2008 12:43 pm (UTC)
I agree - I was sure that there was going to be a long, drawn out Jimmy/Kara thing...

And yes, I giggled at how the actual reunion in Gemini went -- it's fun when you end up predicting a few things!
brijeana
Aug. 13th, 2009 04:39 am (UTC)
Aw! *warm fuzzies* Lovely ficlet. <3
htbthomas
Aug. 13th, 2009 01:32 pm (UTC)
Thank you! Smallville broke my heart this year, but I'll always ship them. :)
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